If you're trying to read this, you probably are going to have an extremely boring time because this is more of a vent than anything else.
A lot of stuff happened over the last few days. Some good moments, some bad moments, some worse moments and some moments of dreadful anxiety... will we make it?
But troubled times made me realize a few things..stuff that I thought very exclusive and special, are really not so. Maybe I was living in an utopia. That crashed..but i guess that's good, isn't it? Yet, I hope we make it.
A friend told me when you feel bad, frustrated, go up on the roof and scream your lungs out. Haven't tried it out yet. But I hope I don't have to think about trying it out too often. I just hope we make it.
Letting the mind do the thinking instead of the heart could have saved a lot of problems. Damn the heart. I was under the illusion that things were special, this tumult can be taken care of. Utopia crashed...thanks to the one who helped crash it, without knowing. But I'm not losing hope right away...we still can make it.
Another friend has "darkness...coldness..consciousness" as status on a social networking site..I just hope my present consciousness does not revert to coldness and darkness.
I hope there will be light.
I believe there will be light.
I believe we will make it.
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